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[Apr. 5th, 2004|07:50 am] |
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I finally have access to the internet! Oh, I miss my computer and elves so much! Ha, I know I'm crazy, about to die and I still care about my elves (weirdo). Not dead yet.... so don't worry. Man fuck, yahoo had to be a bitch and deactivate my account. It said I didn't log on in four months! WTF, I just checked my mail yesterday... So to those that sent me an email, I'm sorry, I didn't get it. I'm going to try to finish my fiction, I feel so incomplete just leaving everyone hanging. My ex-fiance is doing so much right now (which I can't believe). He's taking me place to place just to see what he can do for me (isn't it sweet?). The treatment I was suppose to get were injections of a certai medicine but my parents refuse to give it to me.
Some may have thought i was playing around when I said the stuff but really, I'm not that stupid to pull off something like this and worry the hell out of my friends. It would be stupid and immature.
Maybe I'm crazy but even though things are crazy right now, i still have this large craving for slash. If anyone has time or is nice enough, can you please reccomemnd me some really good fiction? I love Thranduil with everyone except Elrond (you don't want to know why..*shivers*) and Erestor/Glorfindel. No het, thank you :D |
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| Passing into the Hallls of Mandos |
[Apr. 1st, 2004|01:39 pm] |
Two days ago I went to the doctor to see if I was pregnant. The good news is I'm not pregnant but the bad news is.... Life is so short and it's sad to know that you can't pick your times to go. I was born with a terminal illness and diagnose at the age of 8 months with beta thalassemia. It's not as bad as cancer but the death is still the same, slow and painful.
I'm sorry I'm such a bad author. I have to leave everyone hanging on the unfinished stories. I can't write about love, hope, and happiness when I no longer believe in it. I will soon be dying.... My body is overloaded with iron. Too much iron will scar your internal organs, decrease your appetite (when you ea, you'll throw it back up), your body will age quicker than you're supposed to, and the thing i hate the most, reading and writing will be harder than it used to be.
I'm not sure whether I'm sad or angry at the fact that I'm dying soon but I know my mind is twisted upside-down and inside out because of my family. I broke the news to my parents the other day and for some stupid reason, I accidentally told them about Tyler and I. can you believe this, they were pissed and happy at the same time! It seems that *my own natural born parents knew* I would die this year! They finally revealed to me that when I was sixteen, the doctor had offered this medicine to me so the iron would decrease. My parents being so heartless and cruel rejected the offer, to leave me dying at the age of 23. What kind of parents do I have? I thought parents loved their kids more than their own life!
My parents are *happy* that I'm dying. When I broke the news, they said, "Yes, finally!" *sobs* In addition to all that, they told me they didn't want me to die in their house, said it was bad luck. Well letting me die in the first place is the worst luck you'll ever have in the first place.
I wish I could ignore the call of death but it's hard when you can fee it day my day. For the past month or so, my strength has been decreasing day by day, my mind is mixed up (can't write or read fiction either) and ordinary task seem harder than before. If anyone wants to finish my stories, feel free to, they deserve an ending. As for me, the end will be soon. I might burn in hell for my hunger for lust, greed and violence, but I will burn with satisfaction of doing something worthwhile.
Things I will miss:
1) Everyone in the fandom, I've had a great time being around
2) Troy (damn I won't be able to see it!)
3) ROTK EE (damn I can't even see the deleted scenes!)
4) All the people that I love and my parents (even though their the reason why I'm dying in the first place) |
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| Winter Roses |
[Mar. 28th, 2004|01:55 pm] |
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| |  ditzy | ] |
A while back ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sbluestar wrote me a cheer up fic with my favorite pairing Legolas/Thranduil. I finally had time to upload it to my site. If you would like to read please go to my website. It's short but very sweet. The title is Winter Roses. Thanks Sbluestar!
My site |
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| Plot Bunny Help!!! |
[Mar. 27th, 2004|03:47 pm] |
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| | NBK- California | ] |
For the last 7 days I've been sittin on my ass trying to figure out a couple of things. I want to write a Leggy/Thrandy story but can't find a plot bunny that would fit it. The thing i do know for sure is Leggy is hurt by Aragorn and ends up turning to his daddy for comfort. Later their love is forbidden.. blah blah blah. Every story is supposed to have some meaning, they end up accomplishing or learning something. For me, I don't know what it is. I have a couple things worked out but is really really stuck! Anyone have any ideas? NOTE: No abusive, mean Thrandy shit! I hate mean Thrandy! Otherwise all bunnies welcomed! |
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